I started running again this week. I forgot how much it centers me. Well, I think I just ignored it. . . . when I start off for a run, I walk to the end of my street where there is our neighborhood park. The first thing I do is plug in my earphones to my iPhone and pull up my Workout playlist. I always start off with the same song – “Free” by Bonnie Bishop. I call it my Anthem.
“I see the light shining in my eyes
I feel something stirring up down deep inside
Is it my broken heart coming back to life?
I never knew that I could just let go
I thought the pain was out of control
But I surrendered my fears and I realized I’ve got peace of mine
That’s how I know I’m free
I feel a change coming over me
That’s how I know I’m free
Now that these chains are falling off of me and I’m free. FREE.
The one thing you can’t get from somebody else is the love that you’ve got to give to yourself
And when you find it you’ll stand up on your own.
And I’m standing on my own.
That’s how I know I’m free
I feel a change coming over me
That’s how I know I’m free
Now that these chains are falling off of me and I’m free. FREE.
Free to be all that I want to be
Free to be all that I was meant to be
“I see the light shining in my eyes
I feel something stirring up deep inside
Is it my broken heart coming back to life? Cause I feel alive
That’s how I know I’m free
I feel a change coming over me
That’s how I know I’m free”
It is a song of release. Release from the past – not necessarily getting out of a relationship but from all of your personal fears and insecurities and demons that keep you down and keep you from being authentic to YOU.
I recently had to go through the last 5 years of my life. Every detail had to be reviewed. I postponed it for forever. I thought it would be horrible. It wasn’t. Don’t get me wrong – there were painful memories I thought about. But there was a lot of good. Some great times. Fun times. Moments where I discovered something about myself or rediscovered all over again.
Center and balance is a necessary component to my life. If I stay too far in one direction, it takes me too far away from who I am. For me, it is not a good feeling. So although Life pulls me away from doing things all the time that center me, I try to get back to those things that bring me back to my Self.
I think I’ll keep running for awhile.
(oh yeah and buy that album of Bonnie's called "Free" - AMAZING Album)
